The end of 2011

Perhaps another reason to keep this blog going is to reflect about the year that is going to end. or perhaps boredom has cause me to write this. This entry has no apparent content. Just sharing it out loud from my thoughts.

Certainly, many things happened - too much to be said in an entry and too little to sufficiently share it here.

There are no doubt happy, sad, encouraging, discouraging, disappointed and regretted moments. I thank God for all for He has used it all to groom me.

2011 resolutions
Did you manage to get your resolution achieved? accomplished? forgotten? ignored? or cancelled? I have never really set mine this year because I have already set them a few years back. Perhaps I'd like to call it my life resolutions. Well, too much to be said in an entry and too little to sufficiently share it here.

Life in 2011
Life has always be tough, never meant to be easy or fair. Until one realizes it, complaints would reduce and compliments would be more. There are so many discouraging remarks made compared to encouraging ones in the social media. No wonder, it is hard to stay positive at times. When good things happens, few appriciated and when bad things surfaced, many criticized. This is the nature of our being. Denying it could bring you no where but defying it could change a situation 180 degrees.

Relationships in 2011
I've come to fully realized that a family without a father would cause a power struggle in the house at times. Where the son would try to take lead and the mother would want the son to obey. Thankfully, there's a Father who keep watch and controls every situation.

Relationship with friends has gone rather shallow. I meant no negativity. But I have always feel that a true friend is someone who knows you, not just the everyday you. A person always longed to be truly cared for, and constantly be listened by someone trustworthy.

Relationship precedes ministry/everything. I always abide by that. But I am still struggling to be outgoing and initiative. Well it's not all bad. At least I have something to strive for. To take courage and 'go out' is a real deal to me.

Faith in God - active or passive?
We are called to have faith in God, not lose hope and believe in miracles. I have learnt that we need to do it both consciously and unconsciously. If not, desires will take control. I have many desires, so big that it can be one of my aims in life. I have committed those desires to God in prayers and asked Him to show me in His will and time. But it is hard to maintain prayerfully. I dont know but when there are things that you know you just cannot afford to lose, you will try your best to achieve it in your own strength. Most often than not, I failed miserably and realized 3 things - wasn't God's will, wasn't God's time, or something Better has been prepared.

I wouldn't want to be passive and just sit by waiting for God's time and will. And whenever I am active, things does not work out or at least it hasn't been.

Staying optimistic, still
My desires, resolutions, aims, goals or dreams aren't simply academic results, physical fitness or buying something expensive. But mostly lifelong commitments such as career, family and future. Everytime it seems impossible, I'd always remind myself of the miraculous events that God has accomplished in my life. They are always the right things happening at the right time. When such things happen, that particular event will always be a miracle, and a testimony. You will never get tired of sharing it so many times.

I pray that the upcoming year will be a prosperous year for all when your dreams come true at the right time. Till then, share it with me (if u've read this entry) so that I can share your joy.

Agape
Eugene
28 December 2011